I’ve hit the wall and had to re schedule my week. I’ve not been sleeping well for a while and I badly need to catch a few more hours. The caring role is tough and draining at the moment, more than I was expecting. Coping with a new treatment is always rocky I guess. Heard some terrible stories too from other mental health advocates yesterday, and it’s all too much. I spent most of yesterday bursting into tears at random times, and by last night I was shattered. Cried on my sister’s shoulder for a bit, and then on a nice lady from the Suicide Call Back Service. They provide support for people at risk of suicide, as well as carers of someone at risk of suicide. Then I took a sleep inducing antihistamine and knocked off. My glands are up, my asthma is giving me trouble, the fibro symptoms are not good, and my dissociation level is climbing. Time to stop!

So, I’m cancelling TAFE tonight and the Salisbury Writers Festival Awards tomorrow night. 😦 I’ve been told I’ve received a Highly Commended for one of the Haiga I submitted. I’ll have to ask them to post it instead. How terribly disappointing! I’m going to trek in for my Group today and concentrate on getting to the one tomorrow as well. I’m not going to finish my kite in time for the cut off date. Sometime today or tomorrow I’ll photograph the other four works and send off my submission. The rest of the time I’ll hopefully catch up on sleep, read, paint a little, and rest up until I’m feeling less fragile.

And sometimes I’m asked why I consider myself to be an artist with a disability.

On a different note – I’m declaring that it is Hug Your Pet week. Another two people I know have had their beloved pets die recently too. If you’ve still got one, give it a hug. If you don’t – I know how you feel. Hugs for you.