My health has crashed. My doctor reckons a virus has knocked out my immune system, so I have a host of secondary bacterial infections kicking me in the head. I’m battling bronchitis, laryngitis, and sinusitis, two ear infections, fluid behind my ear drums, one of which is threatening to rupture, and the start of a kidney infection. My fibro is bad with constant pain, and both TMJ (joints in my jaw) have inflamed badly causing pain and limiting my ability to chew food. I am so, so miserable.

I can’t drive, the bronchitis is contagious so I can’t have human company, and life is not currently worth living. There’s major stress or illness for many of my friends this week, which is distressing me. I feel useless, disconnected, lonely, self hating, and overwhelmed.

Zoe is bored and miserable. Left outdoors she is barking and whining incessantly. Indoors she is destroying anything in her reach, including her dog harness. I’m so exhausted. Maybe I shouldn’t own a dog, it’s so hard when I’m sick.

Sarsaparilla has an ear abscess which I’m cleaning with salt water and betadine, but it’s getting worse so I’m trying to find a way to get him to the vet. Finances are painfully tight, I’m having to cancel work which is distressing and awful and I’m trying to cover bills and still afford meds and food.

I’m on steroids, antibiotics, vitamins and whatnot. Hopefully they’ll work fast and well because this is hell.