This evening has been better. I don’t feel good exactly, but I don’t feel bad. I can breathe and I don’t want to cry. It’s the most wonderful thing in the world. I’m a little scared of going to sleep because the mornings have been hard. For about 3 weeks I wake straight into panic every morning. When I’ve tried focusing or mediation I go straight back to sleep only to wake in panic again a few minutes or half an hour later. It’s exhausting.

I hope tomorrow will be different. But even if it’s not, tonight was really nice. ❤